我好想你 阿

i cant deny what's deep inside my heart .

Every time we say goodbye

There's something breaking deep inside

hmm , so when did i last post ;D

anyone miss my post (:

chey , im being a bit crazyy .

alright , trying hard to study .

wellwell.

time pass-by , people will change aint it .

like how he does .

i cant help being jealous or being in love.

that's the reason why i should get myself cheerup ! :D

POSITIVE THINKING ! 

i dont want to lose what im holding on now .

how i wish we will be back like how we did .

holding on so tightly , im so afraid it might slip away .

like how you does .

怎么能轻易就放他走 

我看不开,也方不开.

宁愿傻傻地等待

但愿, 喜欢的你会回来.

OHYA ! 

Happy birthday to ayin (:

belate-d birthday to ZT :D

early birthday wish to .. 

ahgong , Denise .

&& YINSIN JIE ! :D 

The memories ease the pain inside

together with all those sweet memories ,

i see your smile .

im so glad that you've been going on w/o me.

all the memories i've been holding on ,

i will try to move .

i'll try to find my way back in this life ,

its too late to turn back ,

i dont want to get hurt anymore .

则么你离开了

Got me reminiscing down too much memories

I know that the fault's mine
i should have never let you go.
Tried to get over it, but it's messed up

OHHH！

anyway saw a rainbow yesterday ?

*wink ! 

nice one baby ! 

was walking towards parc vista yesterday

& saw it together with friendddds (:

ohhh , im so happy & had great time staring at it .

yesterday went out to look for abegail & eunice at namdai (:

did nothing actually ,

took bus to boonlay cc to meet melissa & others.

had quite lots of fun at 219 .

there's a violent boy there ! ;x 

chey , thanks for the greentea kor ;D

play-ed pooool at parc vista.

the ball flew out when SOMEONE's trying to hit it .

it hits me okay ! 

damn it , angry lahh ! 

D; its pain okay .

than rahul kept winning the game .

& those guys became like , wow his luck .

heeees ! but but , same thing happen to him .

SOMEONE hit the ball , it flew out .

the ball dash across , almost hit him .

im laughing like .... *ehemm .

okay okay , whatever .

another thing happen which makes me damn mad.

please , mind you .

i cant take this joke .

stop being so insulting .

around 11+pm went home (:

我还爱着你

把烟味当成你的呼吸

是不是我太过冷静

看你转身我还很清醒

想听的话

Turning all my thoughts to you

 Can't stop the tears from falling

We used to be so fine

yesterday was such a torturing day oh.

early in the morning went to sandpit to pick up rubbish.

than had our storytelling .

{boy , you used to tell me bed time stories}

than got our break time .

used half an hour to went to nearby coffeeshop eat .

than rush back.

still early before Leon come .

awhile Leon jiu come le ,

than had our bored lesson.

look through scripts.

than off to flim.

went to juronglake park .

fooling around ;x 

suddenly it rain ,

went to nearby shuttle.

James & izwan was fooling around .

like dont know what -.-

than back to fiming in school.

its take so long can ?

everyone need to be quiet -.-

even they aint in the course .

so lame lahh ! 

even teachers also , wowww ! 

than was like totally peace .

same thing .

james & izwan was playing with massage chair .

zzz , so damn funny 

phone kan confiscated -'-

wellwell , w/o phone till the end of the day D;

had cup noodle for my dinner.

awww, pathetic .

where's my BBQ anyway ?

8pm offfff to meet melissa

went to meet melissa at parcvista .

patrick & rahul .

jiu go to 219 for our slacking time (:

horrible , they'll trying to scare us 

but i aint feeling good , so not really into it .

went home , bathe & fell asleep .

morning missed call from 

one unknown number .

2 - binhuang 

1 - Leon .

ohshit , i guess im so gonna be dead ohh .

hehehehe ! but i really dont feel like going .

& mom has already approve .

tiring bodoh ! 

bye peeps. 

im having my breakfast -.-

我终於放开了你的手
其实我觉得难受
我满足不了你的要求
时间也不会再为我们倒流
我很想挽留

爱情走得太模糊

i've been thinking of words to say.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn.
Is just to love and be loved in return

back from school ohh ;D

had mac for my breakfast today.

went to school with reena & melissa (:

we reach there quite early ohh . 

punctuality . 

had the bored lesson .

i came early just to .... 

aye , melissa & reena know ohh ! 

BOOOHOOO ! 

ignore that then .

LOLL ! 2pm there's still one more extra lesson.

aint going for that .

im home (:

reena ! i want my tuition ohh ;D

no play play today .

shall we ? :D *wink

多少次错过又来

多少次爱过再爱

直到拥有才明白我的爱已不再

I've got so tired of asking why 

I just want you to know
That i've been fighting to let you go

reena and yuxin came to look for me just now .

& ya , spend the day inside my room.

was having quite a lot of fun though.

mamamia .

im boredd.

shall end the day with a survey.

Who are the girls you trust most?

MRVY , Abegail & some others (:

Can you fill this out without lying?

yahh .

what's the last thing you put in your mouth?

surgar can drink .

Someone that made you smile today?

reena & yuxin yo ! 

What are you doing now?

doing this survey .

When is your birthday?

oct 24 ;D

Who was the last person you took a pic?

uhh , who ? Reena ? 

Is anything bothering you right now?

Ya , i guess so ?

What is more important, happiness or trust?

bothh .

What's the very first thing you do when you wake up?

Check handphone .

Do you even KNOW how to do the laundry?

uh , im sorry . haaas ! 

Who's the last person that told you

someone , dont wanna say out the name .

When's the last time you had a headache?

long time ago ? or i haven had it before .

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?

yeahhyeahh

Are you happy with the way things are going?

Not really .

Do you hate people who smoke ?

No .

Who is your favorite person to talk to when you're down?

Melissa ? ;x

What woke you up this morning?

msg , from reena .

Who was the first person to call you today?

Uhh , who ? ;x forgotten/

Have you ever gone to court?

what for ;D

Where is the boy you want most?

where're you , boy ?

Did you cry today?

Nope.

Have you held hands with anyone

recently?

yes yes 

Who was the last person of the opposite sex to text you?

uhh , can i dont say out the name ?

Who was the last person to sleep in your bed besides yourself?

vincenthon ! 

Whose bedroom were you in last?

mine lo

Who was the last person you yelled at?

vincenthon.

How many windows are open on your computer?

4.

How late did you stay up last night and why?

12plus , cos i feel like it 

Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?

yes , i'll always do that .

Do you know what you're wearing tomorrow?

uhh , lets decide tmr 

What do you currently hear right now?

ni zui jing hao hao ma?

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

forgotten.

Does your ex miss you?

ask them ?

How has the week been?

Fun though.

Are you tired right now?

quite

What should you be doing right now?

uh , lie-ing on my bed , zuo bo.

Was last night a good night?

uh , idk lehs

我从背后望着你
就这样走出我的生命
曾经的承诺
只像雨里的彩虹
我受伤的心真的好痛
为什么受伤的总是我
到底我是做错了什么

There's only so much i can take.

I can hold back my tears
And try to be strong

morning went mac with mummy (: 

than meet with melissa & went to parc vista.

went there awhile then jianyuan they all came .

LOL , nothing to do .

playing with Jianyuang phone all the way.

than awhile jiu go out le .

boys with to cycle.

cycle cycle cycle ! 

whatever it's .

heck care......

me , patrick & melissa went inside game room.

haqiqie & whatever it is, is inside there.

than talk talk , something happen .

dont wish to elaborate.

than meet Reena & went to my home .

baba at home D; LOL ! 

ask him if i can go out ,

he say OK ! 

than went out with reena .

melissa they all at 211 there.

meet with them .

& fucking problem happen.

damn pekcek.

than yijie also there.

zzzzz , whatever .

than like that lo ,

im home now .

& PATRICK , I WONT TRUST YOU ANYMORE ! 

NABEI CHAOCHEEBYE .

i wont tell you anymore secret of mine.

当爱情只是一种依赖 不觉得它存在
如果依赖变成了习惯 我反而怕孤单

我笑中还有泪

Boy , I'd do anything to make you mine (: 

take it back, 

all the words you said

yesterday night i get to go out yo ! 

wow , but only 1hour D;

pathetic .

even its 1hour , i had full one hour of fun ! 

i poke Jianyuan at the side , than jianyuan make me .

than junlong started to sit beside me .

& ya , he poke me too .

the cig thing make till my leg , damn pain sia ! 

i being bullied by stupid boys ! 

okay lahh , fair . 

cause i did make them too :x 

than i found out quite a number of people scare ohh.

HEEEEEEE , *evil laughter.

i hide inside the stupid bushh ,

so they cant find me ;D

junlong trying to get in , while i shout go away ! 

LOL. awhile he jiu go le .

lols , than sian .

than i go home (:

10.15pm reach home .

luckily dad not at home uh . 

--------------Edited---------------

just now went to look for Melissa , patrick & two guys.

so stupid can ?

stupid angmorhhh ! :x

make me sia , violent ! 

awhile later , i sms noel call him come .

than he haven come 30min i jiu go home le .

SORRY UH ! i wanted to stay de .

but cant D; dont angry okay ? 

dui bu qiii ! i'll pei you the next time (:

如果这就是爱
在转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉

爱情并不简单

如今没有了你，下半生该怎么走呢？

I put your picture away,
Sat down and cried today.

yesterday get to go out at night .

woops , i guess dad is having a good mood aih ? ;x 

had cca yesterday which was a kind of torture .

take 1 ............ take 7.

& actor was like wtf .

haaaaaaaaaaaaas !

was so sleepy & tired throughout the whole lesson.

almost fell asleep ,

till kimberley they all started play with their fingers,

how interesting ;x 

at night , went to slack.

reach there around 7+pm ?

saw patrick , rahul , Melissa , haqiqie & jianyuan.

other guys came awhile later.

Noel , zhaoen , hongming & Junlong

& i dont know what goes wrong .

than boys gone .

so left with same people again.

WTF LAHH .

damn unhappy about it .

pangseh again & again .

i've enough of it .

kind of childish .

LOLLLL , nvm .

pray hard that i'll be free tonight .

伤心难过的时候我只会泪流地笑
骗自己说我对你很重要
傻得无可救药

如果你已经不爱我 坦白的对我说
不要连分手都骗我

I DONT WANT,

i dont want sit beside timothy ! 

i dont want sit infront of jereny ! 

i dont want to be infront of the teachers table ! 

i dont want to sit in the front row ! 

i dont want mdmwang to exist ! 

i dont want to go scchool ! 

i dont want to see ms ng ! 

i dont want to sit at the seat ! 

i dont want to be far apart from them ! 

i dont want to be far away from the door ! 

i dont want class to be arrange like that ! 

I WANT ,

i want him ! 

i want to change seat ! 

i want to be back to my sit ! 

i want to be near them ! 

i want to be near the door ! 

i want to pon schoooooooooool ! 

i want to complain ! 

i want to smacck mdmwant stomach ! 

i want to slap ms leong !

i want to kicck ms ng to other planet ! 

i want to sit beside *ehemm ! { not him }

i want to be out of the class ! { better than sit there}

i want to leave this classssss !

i want to go maddd ! 

Boy , i've regret the moment i let you go.

today SUCKKKSS ! 

before recess everything was alright .

EL lesson , teacher change seats again.

ya , AGAIN ! 

& this seating arrangement sucks like nobody business.

i want change seat  ! 

let me tell you i sit beside who .

answer is timothy .

FUCKOFF ! 

MDM WANG , FASTER GO GIVE BIRTH LAA .

CB,EXTRA ! 

see laa , actually i already get use to the seats le .

than she go change ! 

whatever ,

after school fucker edgerton want us stay back to complete the homework.

damn suey i tell you.

3+ than dismiss.

than msg msg msg , than eat eat eat .

than off to taman cc.

went look for zhiwei , than abegail.

(: Eunice & yinsin jie was there ohhs.

than than like that lo.

aint a good day after all .

说 说你为什么 为什么要走
说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口 分手的理由
但你却拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
但你还拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛 多么的难过
别越爱越难过
Do Do Re Re Mi Mi Re Do
Do Do Re Mi Do

然后连话都不说 继续沉默
连朋友都没得作 为了什么
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧 坏人我来做

希望你没离开

random photo ohh ! (:

uhhhhhh , ohya .

my dad is bacck from china -.-

{he's singaporean okay}

so i cant use computer everyday anymore.

damn sad laaaaahhh D;

so difficult to survive,

cried so hard yesterday as he scolded for those rubbish.

whatever ~ ~ ~ ! 

somebody's there to cheer me up anyway . :D

maths lesson makes me gonna fell asleep .

nobodys there to entertain me .

somebody waste sms-es on me lehsss ! 

msg me during lesson time (:

i'll be glad ! 

today went badminton-ing with Reena .

LOLLL ! have fun though.

hmm , yuxin get well soon (:

i hate teachers ! 

i wonder why they have the right to scold us.

MS NG SIEW TUAN ! 

you aint my mother , stop being to irritating can a not ?

come read this laa . deyyy ! 

you think we students nice to bully sibo?

ccb , people get lousy result also dint huantio you.

so complainqueen for what ?

now you happy ?

you win , i've got to stay at home now .

cant even go out at night anymore.

ohthanks , thanks for letting me staying at home .

& let me have no freedom.

im so gonna thanks you from the bottom of my heart.

you didnt teach me how to do those questions ,

& yet you're the one who's complaining .

ohplease , as a teacher .

you should let all the students know what you're teaching.

& i dont even understand can ?

well , nvm .. now you're happy with it .

i'll get back my freedom & i swear .

watch what you say .

yesterday meet up with melissa , yuxin , haqiqie , patrick :D

i've fun yo , anyway .

im also quite cheerup when im already down .

seems like the past wont be here anymore.

all i've to said is already sent to you through msg .

& ya , you replied .

i dint know that you're testing me when you're asking for a break.

i really found myself stupid .

can we go back to the day & i'll change my mind .

i'll change my stupid thoughts.

you told me , its already so long ago.

ohsowhat? its take life time to forget ya know ?

im sorry for those msges.

once i read those msg , i'll breakdown & cry,

but i can stop myself by reading it over & over again.

what can i do ? 

you've already leave me ,

w/o a goodbye .

为什么你要离开我

是不是我又做错了什么，

真的很想把你挽留．

是不是我付出的不够多
曾经爱得那么真都付出所有
到最后还是我一个．

拥有了，失去了

Im back posting LOL.

sorry cos lazy update this few day .

errrr, dont know when went to look for Abegail , yinsin & eunice.

long time dint see them D:

so happy (:

4march, [wednesday] , shimano.

laughing like mad in class.

helmet missing -.-

5march, 

after school went to namdai look for abegail & eunice .

LOL , over all , okay okay laa (:

today uh ,

hmm , CCA -.-

boredohhh, than now im home .

later gonna go out (:

Friday mahh , my rountine .

LOL ! whatever , crapping

ohya !

AYIN I LOVE YOU ! (:

dint come school today ohh ):

something hurts, 

some word hurts more .

iloveyou which doesnt meant it .

Just came here to say :

happy birthday Seha sayang(:

happy birthday Edwin (:

happy birthday Alvin (:

grow up le ohhh

shall post tmr (: 

byee , off to sleep ohhh.