我不想去面对

看着你离去的背影，我的心好痛。

back from slacking outside oh .

yesterday sports day ,

weather damn hot !

& im having moodswing once i feel so warm.

zzzz ! whatever.

meet mandi & reena, took 198 to clementi .

errr . also so qiao .

go up the bus saw jeff & shawn .

than another stop, jianyuan , alvin, zhaoen came up .

another stop is caleb & lum.

LOL sia ! -.-

melissa & yuxin dint go & im bored over there.

thanks amirah , atiqah , seha for entertain-ing me :D

wooooohs ! (: 

friday night ,

went to slack at 216 with same people .

& in the end left 5 people , emo-ing .

is like so peace can ? 

today went to cousin house .

played com awhile , than jiu eat .

eat le jiu off down to boonlay cc.

due to the weather -.-

than slack 2nd floor awhile jiu went down.

they were all playing around & ya , im laughing -.-

LOLLL ! whatever 

{what topic, boy ! }

LOL , ignore that .

hmm , & ya , now im home .

so pissed . 

我不想失去

ohwell ,

boredzxc, so have a post ? 

haaaaaas ... 

hmm , today everything went fine .

till after recess.

Ehemm* & Ehemm* quarrel because of something .

than start argue-ing . -.-

whatever , idont care.

mothertongue done stupid things.

asked someone to shutup , & someone scold me for nothing .

damn fuck up can ?

than *ehemm diao me , diao dont know diao what .

boliao , not happy jiu say laa , stare stare stare.

{ifyou'rereadingthis,imwhatever.callpeoplefindmelo}

i guess i know you're those easily blowup de. -.-

today after recesss everything went @$#%Y#@$@.

-.- blaaaa , nvm . i dont care anymore.

dont kaobei me will do , im not interested in those descipline case.

& i dont want too .

i thought you'll mine , 

i thought we could last ,

i thought you handle it with your best ,

i thought things will be the same ,

i thought you'll stay,

i thought those memories will not be erase.

but seems like you made a fool of me ,

you promise to took care of all my need,

you promise that everything will be fine ,

you promise that you'll be there when i fall.

i gave my heart to you , 

cause i thought all you say was true .

i give you the best of mine ,

& i gave you all of mine .

i didnt know that you'll leave .

you made me give up everything of my own.

you choose to throw away our past ,

you choose to leave me alone here , 

i cant believe that you're gone .

i dont want to know , that you're gone .

i can hear your footsteps ehco on the hallway .

{fade away like our memories}

Saw Mdm wang face again .

arg , damn fuck up sio .

she come back than chase after all those homework.

whatever laa ! -.-

today got assembly ohh .

so boredddddd , Iffah keep bully me -.-

discipline check uh !

stupid Ms Yeong , called MRVY name -.-

say what blablablablabla ~ 

whatever ~ 

waited for yuxin ,

but she jsut pass the money .

than we went to Jurongpoint for our class-t .

i tell you uh ! 

my name something wrong ! 

my name i want is : VIVIANH
my shirt is : VIVIanH.

wtf right ?

nvm nvm ! 

went to library to do my homework .

aiyehhhh ! 

guai right :D:D:D:D:D ! 

anyway , thanks ayin for those *ehemm.

;D

can i just want a little more ?

my weakness has slowly becoming my fear.

that's the reason why im so tired of loving .

dont fade away like how our memories does alright.

i really need you back , baby.

just say you do , & i'll never gonna let go again.

就因为如此

seems im bored , will have a post then ? :D

uh , starting my day with science.

oh boredddddddd . 

than geo , funnnn.

recess cant smuggle drink D: 

nvm , forget it .

wellwell, than mothertongue was slackkk.

everything was so slack today .

after school cab to mandi's house .

goodness gracious , i love ''ginger''.

dont say i pian xin .

i love april too .

i love dogsssss. :D

after that walk to playground with MRVY & mandi,

than off to selas house with mandi & yuxin.

i dint know that we're just 1 block away ohh.

selas , you chiam liao .

i'll always jio you out ;D

haaaaaaaaaaaaas ! chey ;x

AYIN ! you still owe me something ! 

iloveyoutons.

i knew its so difficult to get over you .

but im always trying .

thing aint getting better.

im feel so far away from you ,

maybe its always like this .

somehow , you're getting a lot of attention from me .

wont let you know , what am i thinking.

i've ask-ed for an answer .

& that's a answer that i dont want .

awww , i guess we aint meant to .

突然想去海边走走，

回味一个人的自由。

只是和朋友聊了好久，

偶尔也想要你想想我。

just came back from school,

teacher bomb us sia ! ):

we wait for them so long , nobody came .

like wtffffff ?

yesterday night went slackkk :D

with melissa , caiying, jianyuan , hongming, alvin , haqiqie , patrick , zhaoen & bla.

LOL ! ._____.

learn how to balance the stupid thing le ;D

welldone , but i felldown . ):

wondering if i wanna go pierce my ear again .

try again & again till its alright already :X 

i dont need pierce other place like tongue uhh blabla de.

i just want one nia maaahhh D:

stupid sia , alamak.

i want pierce ;D 

got money le , i go pierce again.

test again , one side ;D

im glad that you spend the effort to reply my msg .

im so happy that you reply with so many sentence.

but everythings become the same on yesterday.

no more one word two word three word can ?

i really wish that you'll talk to me properly like on 190209 .

we chat all the way till i fell alsleep .

i miss you boy.

 

因为我爱你

Melissa told me she like this pic ;x

so retard sia -.-

today schooooool was fine ,

MDM WANG DIDNT COME AGAIN !

woops, after school got shimano ,

than went home le :D:D

what a  bored day ya ?

隐藏好心情有多糟，

不做你沉重的背包。

虽然幸福爱跟人躲猫猫。

爱变成了到不了的明天，

不代表又遗忘的昨天。

对你发自内心的言语。

亲吻你动作好强烈

拥有过的爱情

i wonder if there's still a chance.

so , im back posting ? ;x

hmm , yesterday after school.

we're all waiting for *ehemm* for his birthday ''celebration'' -.-

ya , we waited very long -.-

quite a lot of boys tio detention ,

i mean whole class ? 

thanks to Mdm seet then ;D

but today only got ,

Jefferson , Bowen , Jinhan , Yewweng & Edwin stay.

hmm , aint gonna mention their punishment ):

Today school was as normal , 

morning went buy my favourite greentea & went to class.

Mdm wang didnt come today ;D 

3Cheeeeeeeeeeeers :D

hmm , maths make me blur over & over again .

ohya , ayin dare-d me to ask *EHEMM* for handiplus -.-

& one fker named *ehemm* make me angry

aint gonna talk to him , hmph ! 

LOL ! .___. 

err .. .. .. 

waited for *ehemm , with MRVY in library.

than went home after that . 

i want him bacckkkkkk D:

random -.- 

我以为..

我们能让永远存在。

even i tried to make it stay the same ,

but i failed.

i wonder where it'll lead to me ,

by waiting & waiting .

i just want you to give me a little more ,

i was never looking for approval from anyone but you.

so many promises are broken , 

so many memories are left over .

对不起

Happy valentines people (:

well , just came home .

shouldnt elaborate much about today ya ?

what a great valentine .

remember the day ,

you told me you'll be mine forever .

remember the time ,

we're close & having fun together .

you know when i saw couple(s) .

imissyou so much, how i wish you were beside.

just couldnt press the send button.

when people start ask me why no stead ?

why ? i couldnt tell the reason.

i knew it right from the start that its impossible .

i knew that the past wont be present .

how i wish you were there , 

laughing & chatting & doing stupid things .

like how we did in the past .. 

明知这份爱不会有结果，

但我还是无法克制自己，

不去爱你，

我一定是在某些地方，

太依赖你了。

dared ;D

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往事从提是折磨

you wont get to see me cry .

you make me feel alright , 

for in once in my life.

hating you , im blaming myself.

i know i know i know .... 

today damn hell .

- EL , forget bring worksheet . copy passage 4 times.

- Maths , i talking to zhiwei , i 'zuuuu' yinsin . kana by ms ng .

- SEL , the norita scold us for not partcipating in games.

- Shimano , not until 10 people was there .

WTH ! 

what a nice day ya ?

ohplease , we aint the reason why we're not partcipating.

cant you use your sharp eyes to see , did they even pass us the ball ?

im tired okay ? 

we've did nothing wrong , yet you're all the way scolding us.

after school had my shimanooooooo ;D

but , aint a good one .

dont have jokers to talk & entertain me .

Mr deryk went to staff room ,

i had my 4~6round of cycling ,

i went play basketball :D:D:D ! 

played till 4~5+ ?

wooops , i've lots of fun during basketball .

than went home .

ohya, maths & geo was alright .

i know how to answer those questions (:

accept for home-econ :S

didnt study for it ,

dont even understand the questions.

get ready to faillll .

Made me promise I'd try
to find my way back in this life.
I hope there is a way
to give me a sign you're ok.
Reminds me again it's worth it all
so I can go on.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh-hellooooooo ! 

im somehow back from my torturing .

LOL !

as yuxin said , 

i was entertaining myself from yesterday till today.

laughing non-stop .

& i dont know why .

ohya ! & that fucking teacher(s) of mine ,

spoil my happyyyy mood , 

wanting me to bring home everything that's under my desk.

what the heck , heavy like hell can a not ?

will be having commontest tmr yo !

i've just read & trying to understand those geo thingy.

making me mad , thanks to reena alright ? ;X

really ty for giving me the notes for it . 

someone's gonna treat me meal if i've get c5 for all .

LOL ! impossible ?

(: vivian will try hard de alright ?

anyway , i've met Abegail & eunice today (:

well , long time no seeeeeeeeeeeee my dear.

slacking under block 529 & went to look for mum after that .

meet up soon again .

goodluck to me alright ?

ohya , selas & mandi , iloveyou too ;D

ofcourse MRVY & babe (: ! 

dont bother to know who i love.

there's not need for you to comment on the photo too.

wellwell , i thought everything will be alright after that day.

i thought im already having my first step out .

i thought im always over you .
i thought everything will be different .

i thought , i thought, i thought ....... 

ya , im always trying but failing .

it doesnt matter if i've waste how much time on you.

it doesnt matter if you're ignoring me ,

i just want the past back , the times when we'll having our times.

those memories are always kept safely inside my heart .

i'll wait , wait for the day ..

when you'll say you want me back D':

maybe its impossible ,

well , shall stop crapping & type all my thoughts out .

能不能从新来过

就因为我太爱你。

Today went out of Cousin's house around 12+

meet Reena at jurongeast mrt .

went off to bedok , meet with other cellgrp peeps.

Reach east coast & get our rollarblade :D

wellwell , overall i've lots of fun .

Seahhui make me laugh like hell at one of the part ,

At that part , quite lots of people fell :D

at least we blade better right ? (:

Home around 7+pm.

went down to 526 eat with cousin & other people.

just reach home then ;D

stop being like dog can ?

nothing better to do izit .

get your own style can ,

only dog will do the same thing as people.

fcker, ccb.

anw , girl .

dont think so mucch can ?

we aint what you thought .

we're always like this . 

jio me out , better entertain me .

dont pangseh me , 

 in the end you're the one that saying me .

you're the one who pangseh me with him ,

left me aside & he came entertain me .

ohplease ... 

get things right -.-

tell me if you're not happy .

i'll straight away go home .

well , i sent one msg & im happy that you replied :D

i dont need much from you , 

i just want us to be back like the past .

laughing & smiling & talking together .

it aint difficult right ?

我还是不明白

Today school overall was fine yo ! (:

SEL played basketball & as usual MRVY was there slacking .

Mother tongue Yewweng pour nicole water -.-

sound so stupid , blaa ~ 

after school stayed back for maths remedial ,

after remedial , went to 186 waited for Junlong.

keep call & call , all he reply is : i at home , im going down now .

waited for damn long , called again : where're you .

im at home , go down le .

wth laaa . shall meet other day then .

Saw gohyijie , wonder what happen -.-

Jeff didnt come to school today uh D:

wellwell , must see you tmr uh .

hmm , bowen nehh , suspended from class -.-

dumbdumb .

i just cant seems to be place in your heart again ,

I can't forget you when you're gone,
You're like a song.
That goes around in my head.
And how I regret,
It's been so long.
wonder what went wrong,
Could it be something I said.
Time, make it go faster,
Or just rewind.
To back when im wrapped in your arms,

to the time when you say you'll be there for me till the very end .

因为我爱你

Bitches fuck off then , 

i didnt need you in my life just to fooling around .

im tired of being jealous ,

im sick of the fear that live in me .

Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you,
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
but there's something, boy you need to know .
That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.

Hmm , start off with schooling ? 

actually school nothing much -.-

got one part , i shout to call the people from farfar away to come down.

i shout : COME DOWN LAA BASTARD .

2C de teacher : OIIIIIII ! 

i stun tio , than say paiisehh paiisehh uh -.-

after school went library for remedial , 

and went to the place where we go yesterday.

aint fun at all , kaobei couple ;D

stupid sia , Argg ! 

ccb , make us wait for almost 2hours .

nabeicheebyee all your fault -.-

i just dont like how you communicate with our class girls,

its doesnt sound right i know ,

but aint it too close ?

and she hold your hand just infront of my face.

what's that , purposely or what ?

yet you all laughing all the way through .

ya , deep inside im hurting already .

just numb my heart ,

i dont want you to be with **** .

and i dont know why .

i know our chinese boys and her is very close ,

but i just dislike it can ?

i dont want dont want dont want anyone to touch you .

i guess im being selfish .

BOOHOOOOO ! (:

this few days quite happy after all ;D

if that thing didnt really happen

WYX & WYZ last long -.-

至少我曾经拥有

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not emo post le okay ?

meet jinjun they all today & the end .

all pangseh -.-

kaobei , blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah laa ~ -.-

(: WUYUXIN ! 

faster dont guailan , say yes or no . (:

im using a friendly tone , with a smiley face behind okay -.-

就是因为你。

I WANT MSG HIM LAA !

D: why you call me dont msg you =.=

fuckzxc !

i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu

K !

因为没有了你，

我才放弃了自己。